Kato Seishiro
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Jan 2, 2008 20:18:35 GMT -5
Post by Kato Seishiro on Jan 2, 2008 20:18:35 GMT -5
Living a lie was something Seishiro had attempted many times, and failed with each try. It was difficult. But having a cold persona and a warm heart was what he had grown used to. Call it shyness. Call it haughtiness. He purely just didn't like being judged off of his clingy, outgoing, clownish self. For a better effect, he even looked to be the cold-hearted person he acted out. Only those of which he truly loved and respected were ever able to see his true heart and motives. And they were few in number. It was how he preferred it. Because people were back-stabbers, and always had their own benefit in mind. Humanoids were disgusting things to look at and befriend. Even those few kind-hearted individuals were hideous deep within. And there was nothing anyone could do about it.
A gentle pressure caught Seishiro's attention. Nothing physical, that was for sure. But it nagged at him, tugging at the corners of his consciousness until he finally acknowledged the idea that he was no longer alone in his own self. Something, someone was inside him, picking at the stray bits of everything as though in hopes of locating some secret that he had hid away. Something deep. For only his eyes and thoughts to dwell upon.
And that's when he knew.
Twirling around, he gently grabbed the girl, Katanai's face, her chin. Lifting it slightly, he peered curiously at the face before a cold smile lit his lips. And he bent over, putting his mouth close to her ear. He spoke with a whisper, "It's rather rude playing in someone's mind without their asking, don't you think? It's not, after all, you own personal playground."
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Misarashi Katanai
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Jan 2, 2008 20:40:08 GMT -5
Post by Misarashi Katanai on Jan 2, 2008 20:40:08 GMT -5
Katanai gasped slightly. *How did he know that I used it?! It was so slight!* She then said to him just as quietly, "You know, I don't choose what I hear now and again. When my attitude is lowered mostly. That's when I hear it- in the silence of it all. I hear other's thoughts. I'm sorry. I didn't choose to this time..."
She then looked at him. He now wore a cold smile. She bore around the same look, a smirk, not as cold, but still. She softened her gaze. She felt kinda.. bad. But it wasn't her fault. She hadn't chosen to hear it this time.
*Kekkie Genki... more like a curse* she thought. She hated when that happened but she couldn't help it. She then tucked her silver hair behind her ear. Her crimson eyes were their usual shade of red. She was not trying to use her Cat's Eye now but it might kick in again.
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Kato Seishiro
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Yeah? So? I don't want to talk to you anymore.
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Jan 5, 2008 3:12:19 GMT -5
Post by Kato Seishiro on Jan 5, 2008 3:12:19 GMT -5
With an arched eyebrow, he loosened his grasp on her chin and turned away. Whether she told the truth or not about this, one this was especially clear to him. Not her sincerity. No, that could be false. But that he did not like the idea of having someone in his head, even if it was unintentional. The truth was: she still looked. She didn’t try not to hear his thought, not to escape from the room of his mind. But she remained there listening and taking in the words that floated through his head.
“Then fight it,” he said at her lack of control, “What more can you do? Because perhaps it isn’t your appearance that makes people look down upon you. Perhaps it is that they too can feel when you have gone inside them and either find it fearsome, or odious.”
Rotating his neck, he looked over his shoulder at her from the corner of his eye. If she took offense at what he was saying, then she would not be, he guessed, open minded. Everything would still be about appearance. Vapid. Uninteresting.
Hardly worth a conversation.
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Misarashi Katanai
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Jan 6, 2008 21:13:17 GMT -5
Post by Misarashi Katanai on Jan 6, 2008 21:13:17 GMT -5
Katanai listened to the boy in shock. No one had ever felt anything or shown any symptoms of feeling it. She finally sighed. She decided to try to relax and drop the jutsu. She smirked. *See, Katanai? This is why you have no friends, apparently... your Kekkie Genki...*
Her usual attitude was beginning to seep back into her mind. She looked the opposite direction. She had every intention to spit in his face, then and there. There was just something about him that seemed to not allow Katanai to do so. She closed her eyes. She saw an image... of... herself. She was finally able to see it! She had been waiting for that for some time now since she had finally learned to summon her Kekkie Genki. She smiled as she forced her image- her focus and part of her sub conscience, back into her mind. She was relieved a great pressure that she had been feeling for quite some time now.
She looked back at him. She had hurt and some understanding in her eyes, despite the fact that he had made her so angry. She then said, "Seishiro... is...is it gone?" She had to ask so that she could know for sure. She felt an immense headache as she had the dizziness of being about to pass out. She tried to shake it, just long enough for him to answer, hopefully longer.
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Kato Seishiro
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Yeah? So? I don't want to talk to you anymore.
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Jan 7, 2008 17:42:57 GMT -5
Post by Kato Seishiro on Jan 7, 2008 17:42:57 GMT -5
It was, obviously, quite a struggle that she had put up to gain control of her ability. At that moment, he thanked the gods once again for not cursing him with such powers. Normal abilities were fine, controllable with practice, and could inflict as little harm on a person as he pleased. A kekkei genkai would just be a burden. Not all because of the strength you needed to properly use one. But mostly because it would be expected. Parents want their children to have it, and continue to pass it on. Continuous training.
Completely not worth it.
She looked pale. Moist with clamminess. Some fight against herself, he thought.
"You look like you're going to puke," he said plainly, and nodding towards the brook continued, "Get a drink. And yes. It's gone. Good job."
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Misarashi Katanai
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Jan 7, 2008 20:07:23 GMT -5
Post by Misarashi Katanai on Jan 7, 2008 20:07:23 GMT -5
Katanai nodded and smiled a bit. She also blushed a bit, for having that little slip-up with her jutsu. She sighed as she reached into the stream that seemed to be following them. She cupped her hands and splashed it gently on her face. She wouldn't risk getting ill from drinking the water.
She gasped a bit for air. She could hardly stand the chill of the water. She ran her fingers through her hair- a bit stressfully. She began to feel the color rush back into her cheeks and her eyes become less dull.
She felt her tail curl in discomfort. She then gave a slight, innocent giggle. "That was more uncomfortable than I intended." she said with a laugh- the water trickling down the back of her neck. She sighed and watched as she grew damper and damper- just from the amount of water that she could cup in her hands.
She felt as if she were a bit more free now- her playfully sarcastic attitude returning to her, spreading through her body as if it were in her blood or her chakra. Even though her tail was clamped tightly in a ball, she could feel herself relaxing... as if the water had just washed off all the discomfort. She then said, "I'm sorry about all of that, Seishiro-kun.", without giving a thought about not apologizing. She had but him through alot of discomfort most likely. She figured that if she wanted to make a friend, she would need to learn to say, "sorry".
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Kato Seishiro
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Jan 10, 2008 13:30:05 GMT -5
Post by Kato Seishiro on Jan 10, 2008 13:30:05 GMT -5
As she knelt besides the brook, he let his eyes linger on her for a slight second before his sight strayed to a far more interesting object. The way the stones cut through the surface, disturbing the gentle current as it bubbled along laughingly. Clear and pure. Glittering like unshed tears. With a constant movement. Always forward. And he wondered….what would happen if a stream decided to turn back in itself, reverse direction? It the sun went backwards? Would the world turn upside down and everything collapse into nothing? Or would life continue running, people ignorant, without realization of the events that had occurred?
At her gasp, he returned once against to looking at her. Her appearance was returning to a healthy shade, the glaze of illness over her eyes fading away. That was good. He’d hate to have to drag her back into the social area of town.
And when she apologized, he felt calmness born inside him once again.
“-kun.” When was the last time someone other than an adult had addressed him in such a way?
Making eye contact, he smiled at her. Not his faked, cold and heartless smile of disgust and disdain. But his true, real, warm smile, saying that everything was alright between them. Rare were such expressions, and with his usual manner, it should be obvious. A kindness that few people had or would ever earn.
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Misarashi Katanai
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Jan 11, 2008 18:03:23 GMT -5
Post by Misarashi Katanai on Jan 11, 2008 18:03:23 GMT -5
Katanai laughed a bit to herself as all the harshness between herself and Seishiro seemed to disappear. She felt the warmth of his smile this time around, as if she were meeting the real him for the first time ever. She didn't know until that very moment that his smile could be warm at all. She just returned the favor, smiling her warmest.
*a smile is contagious*, Kat quoted in her mind. She couldn't help but finally learn the meaning of that small and simple phrase. She was overjoyed to have finally, after all that struggle, gained the boy's trust.
She felt a great tension lift off her shoulders. His smile was one of the purest forms of human kindness that she had received in a while. She just wished that all of humanity could see what she felt sometimes- see what she went through.
She then, not knowing what else to say to thank him, for everything, threw herself onto him, in an embrace- a hug, if you will. She didn't really care if he found it awkward or anything like that. It was the only thing she could think of doing at that moment in time.
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Kato Seishiro
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Yeah? So? I don't want to talk to you anymore.
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Jan 14, 2008 17:42:08 GMT -5
Post by Kato Seishiro on Jan 14, 2008 17:42:08 GMT -5
He cringed. It had been a long while since the last time he had been hugged, and to be honest - it felt weird. Not bad, but so unusual that his entire body grew smaller at the embrace. He was fine with touching and clinging, random attacks from behind...if they were on his own terms. Either he had to initiate the action, or only the people who he really trusted and loved were allowed to. It was just the way he was. Physical contact was something he loved, but only with those few people that were special enough to him.
So far: she wasn't.
But he wouldn't tell her off for overstepping her bounds. And he wouldn't go cold on her again. Not that he could after showing her a real smile. It was as though he'd lessened his defensive barrier for a second, and she had seen her way in. Not the wisest thing that he had done. But, he supposed, no harm could come from it. Not at the moment at least. It wasn't as though they'd meet again.
Students were like that. If they meet outside of the classroom they can be best friends. But once they return to the school, they are complete strangers. It was an unspoken law that a person is to remain with their group of friends, ignore the rest, hate those that are different. Nothing to do but suck it up and get on with life.
((Ugh. Maaaaajor blockage-ness.))
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Misarashi Katanai
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Jan 18, 2008 22:34:00 GMT -5
Post by Misarashi Katanai on Jan 18, 2008 22:34:00 GMT -5
Katanai released her grip.
"Sorry." she stated plainly. "I can be quite a handful at times."She said with a slight laugh mixed in. She didn't feel like trying to hide her rambunctious self at times. She didn't really bother thinking of how others would react with such things and just let her inner-child out, even if she thought that she was the stricter type, she could not deny that she had that small bit of childishness left inside her soul.
She stepped a safe distance away from the boy, knowing now, there actually WAS someone on the planet that was more anti-social than she was. She figured that they had their own little group. A little group of anti-socials. She figured out, after some thinking, that he was actually quite social, but with a catch- he would only be social with people of his own group.
*What's with humanity? Everyone's like that- weather they want to believe they are or not, they are. Every person I've ever met has a little piece of cliquishness inside of them. I'M probably cliquish underneath it all. All I would need is to find more cat ninjas and there I go...* she thought in puzzlement.
She now walked at the edge of the stream. *It's going nowhere, everywhere, and somewhere all at the same time...* she observed silently. Though she didn't like to brag about it, she was very observant and intelligent. She looked at it closely. She just wished that she could allow herself to be so free. Katanai felt that most everything in nature was either free, or controlled by something superior.
[[ooc- sorry that post sucked... I've been having a creative block lately. ^^]]
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Kato Seishiro
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Jan 21, 2008 15:30:51 GMT -5
Post by Kato Seishiro on Jan 21, 2008 15:30:51 GMT -5
A cold look escaped his eyes as he glanced at her. No. Glared. An unintentional look that was truly meant for himself. “It isn’t you,” he whispered, apologetically, “It isn’t your fault. I don’t like close emotional physical contact with people I’ve just met.” It was an unconvincing explanation, but the truth. And that was what mattered. “I’m not that trusting of a person, I hate change and newness. I don’t like being hurt, so I push people away. And with that, I show them the personality that they are expecting. Cold. Hateful. Slowly I do become this out of my own mistake and fear of world.”
It was all he could say. And far more than he’d told anyone before. Like the wall had came crumbling down, the mask dangling from the strings around his neck. For some reason he had felt the need to tell her of this. As though he could feel she was judging him incorrectly. And in that: she was correct. For at one time, what he had not been, he now was. Just complications and unpleasantness. And why on Earth he felt the need to defend himself, he didn’t know.
Ah yes.
D*amned human nature.
Hide what you feel. Deny what you are. Live as something you never wanted to be in the first place. That was what made the world keep turning. Filth in the world like him that lied and lived in fear of being discovered and hated. Making the people around them despise them even more so.
“Forget it,” he murmured, walking away, not expecting, nor caring if Katanai chased after him. He didn’t need it. No one did. But he was surprised to feel that he did want her friendship. Selfishness. He was lonely, wanted someone to talk with. To go places with. To be there if he needed them. But he always understood why. Why they left. Why they turned around and found someone else.
Because he didn’t know how to support them back.
((OH MY GOD!!!! *dies laughing* The crappy emoness of this post. XDD Lololololol. *keels over* I'm sorry, you deserve better than this angst filled stuffs. T-T But I had to post it out of pure amusement. =D))
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Misarashi Katanai
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Jan 21, 2008 22:37:03 GMT -5
Post by Misarashi Katanai on Jan 21, 2008 22:37:03 GMT -5
“It isn’t you. It isn’t your fault. I don’t like close emotional physical contact with people I’ve just met. I’m not that trusting of a person, I hate change and newness. I don’t like being hurt, so I push people away. And with that, I show them the personality that they are expecting. Cold. Hateful. Slowly I do become this out of my own mistake and fear of world.”
Katanai listened, her eyes widening with interest. Usually to find out this kind of thing, she would have to use her kekkie genkie- weather she wanted to know or not. *Why... why is he telling me? Why? Why does he want me to know?* She wondered to herself. She was so confused. No one had told her this kind of thing before. *Does he really want me to know? Why? Why would he care if I knew?*
She watched him, wondering if he would give her an answer to her vast mine of inner questions.
“Forget it”
Her hopes shattered within those two simple words. *How could I forget it?* she asked herself, wishing she could ask him.
Then, she whispered under her breath, without even knowing she had said anything, "I don't care if you think that there is no hope for humanity at all. I don't care if you think that I'm just another one of those stuck up people that you see in the hallway, talking about their nails. I want to be your friend... I really do.."
She then, realized what she had said....
~ Time for one of Kat's super special Inner Conversations! ~
Inner Kat: EMO ALERT! Kat: Wha? Inner Kat: What was that? You just spilled alot right there! Kat: What do you mean? I just whispered it a little! He probably didn't hear... Inner Kat: What are you talking about?! You can't whisper for crap! Kat: Sorry, okay! I just thought it would be reasonable to tell him... just let him know... but I didn't... yet I did... unknowingly... Inner Kat: Stupid emo girl Kat: If I'm emo, you're the one who made me so... Inner Kat: You're not emo... yet Kat: Wha?? Inner Kat: Forget it! Just go back to doing whatever it is you're doing... You know I'm just kidding!
~ End Inner Conversation ~
[[OOC- sorry that that post sucked so much...^^]]
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Kato Seishiro
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Jan 28, 2008 2:28:06 GMT -5
Post by Kato Seishiro on Jan 28, 2008 2:28:06 GMT -5
((Don't worry about it. XD This thread is really just going downhill.))
There it was. A whisper behind him. Yet he knew it wasn't meant for him. So he didn't listen. No need to, after all, for the words were not for his hearing. It didn't matter. Keep walking. That was all there was to do. Never look back. Because that was what life was about: moving forward and not looking back to what you just did. Never wonder about whether or not the world was going to keep turning. Never regret what you just did. It never got a person anywhere.
And yet, he still felt guilty about leaving her.
Why? She could defend herself.
But he paused, letting the guilt wash through his veins as he lifted his sensitive eyes to the sky, flinching at the dull brightness that struck his pupils and irises. Dull yet bright. That was something for you. But it was true. The gentle blue had darkened into a wondrous color of milky rose, crimson and tainted lemon. Beautiful.
Seishiro turned to her, holding out an arm, "It's getting late. May I walk you home?"
It wasn't necessarily an odd request. But he'd hate to see her get hurt and realize that he quite possibly could have prevented it. Not likely though. He wasn't strong. Yet, it was a daring person indeed who attacked a young teenage girl who had a male escort. As was the view of society, molding them all into believing that women are less strong then men. It was generally true. Physically. But Seishiro knew, were far more able to withstand internal pain. And he respected them for that.
But, gods, how he couldn't stand the idea that women were described and drawn out to be vulnerable creatures. Have the ones he knew took help from no one and could stand on their own two feet no matter what happened. The others...well...they flaunted their womenhood far more than a reasonable person would.
So it was not out of fearing for Katanai's safety that he was offering to escort her home. No. He was trying for once in his life to be courteous.
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Misarashi Katanai
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Jan 28, 2008 21:31:26 GMT -5
Post by Misarashi Katanai on Jan 28, 2008 21:31:26 GMT -5
Katanai sighed. She knew that, once again, she had scared someone away or something like that. She looked down. She listened to his footsteps as he walked away. Suddenly, there was a pause, and then the steps started again.
She looked up once more. She smiled easily, trying to contain her joy, as Katanai saw that Seishiro had walked back, and was offering her his arm.
"It's getting late. May I walk you home?"
She thought to herself, *Courtesy..? Unusual for modern times...*
She lightly grasped his arm. "Yes, thank you." She said with a smile. She was glad to have an escort--her night time walks home could get kind of lonely.
She then took a moment to take in the fact that it was actually night. The sun had disappeared behind the clouds and were gone. She sighed. How time flies. She did wonder where all the time went though. She had remembered it being daylight not too long ago and poof! Not a light in the sky, with exception of the stars.
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Kato Seishiro
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Feb 2, 2008 15:05:39 GMT -5
Post by Kato Seishiro on Feb 2, 2008 15:05:39 GMT -5
He wondered what had happened. Moonlight was something he had walked in often only years earlier. Strolling down the backstreets, avoiding the night traffic, he would wander until exhaustion led him home, and by then it was nearly sunrise. Bathing in his thoughts while the stars glittered overhead, it was not difficult to become lost in silent wonderings as he walked. But no more. It had been quite some time since his last midnight walk, though there was no good and true reason as to why.
Apart from the fury of his parents. They always scolded him when he would return, claiming that sleep was an important part of growth and health. But that was what school was for: sleeping when one already knew the information. And then there were lunchtime and afternoon naps that made up for his “abnormal” tendencies. Though it hardly mattered to him what his parents thought anymore. But something about the look their eyes had brought his silent time to an end.
Actually, he was considering returning to those previous habits. They had done him good, really. Allowing him the time to avoid those truths he did not want to acknowledge, the life at home that was so dull and repetitive that he shied away from it. Lovingly, though. For it was the only time he really ever had to himself, incorrect as it seemed. Parents were always bugging him about one thing or another. Siblings always wanted his attention for a review of some sort. So he remained as far away as possible. At least he used to. Once sleeping at night had returned (even then, he hardly slept) there was no silence to be found. Whatsoever.
But now that he was walking with someone else at night for the first time, he felt awkward. Not that romantic awkwardness that prevented a boy from placing his arm around a girl. Hardly that, for he felt nothing like that towards Katanai and had no intention to. But that annoying feeling that came when one was in the habit of something, and a new being disturbed that peace. Night time was his time for thinking…but he couldn’t just ignore her. That would be rudeness. Yet he couldn’t think of a single thing to say.
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