You don't have to hear me complain

[gotmilk]

Um, hi. It's about 10:00 p.m. and I still don't want to sleep. :p

This is my time filler, something to let me complain or be upset and everything without being judged. So unless you want to listen to me whine and be a brat, I don't suggest anyone reading my stupid rambling.

I don't have any real problems, so to speak, so I don't think I deserve to post in the Advice/Problems section. This is my time taker I guess.

Well first of all, I'm still pretty young. I'm not pregnant, I'm not cutting, I don't drink, I don't smoke, I don't take drugs, or anything. I live a pretty normal life. And like I said before, there's no real problems. I just needed to pour some feelings out, I guess.

I think I'm really good at finding my own faults though. Like my teacher said, the hardest critics will always be ourselves. I'm guessing that's true.

Some people said I have a natural talent in sports and music, but I always doubted it. It's not because I'm being humble or anything (though I really should be. -.-') but because of my stupid character.

My personality is just really, really weak. I get teased alot, since elementary school to now. I'm kind of shy, I have abnormally low self esteem, and I can't handle pressure as well as other's. And even though I've been trying to change myself, it doesn't help it at all.

Is there something wrong with me, or anything?

Am I TOO sympathetic about these things?

I don't know.

I feel I'm too sensitive to emotions.

But even so, I still want to look on the bright side of things. I have a house, two parents, alot of friends, I get education. It'd be just a little nice if I could be stronger like my dad, my older sister, and my brother.

I'm not saying that being sensitive is a bad thing, or anything.

But I need a stronger character because my mom expects alot from me.

I mean, I just got my report card. A+, B+, A, A, B, B+. Three A's, three B's, 3.8 GPA average. So close to 4.0

My mom said it was bad.

Compared to all those A+ students at least. But, they've had tutor since they were in first grade. I just started a month ago and I think I'm doing well.

Okay, so their grades are a little bit better than mine.

But I can honestly say, I'm happier than they are.

That's whats most important, right?

(Try explaining that to a Chinese mother)

Okay, well, thanks for listening to my stupid whininess...another flaw in my character. I'm going to go to sleep before I pass out. :)

Peace out.

[Shishi Haru]

Hmm...Well, I used to be like that too back in middle school. Really low self esteem, I couldn't handle pressure, kids loved to make fun of me. I'm not sure what happened exactly, but I sort of just grew out of it. I developed an ego, and I learned to laugh at my mistakes with others. If they saw me laughing at my own idiocy, they just leave it alone because they know now they can't use it against me.

And as for the 3.8 GPA, that's really good! Especially if your still young, you have a lot of time to raise it up. Eh, and I know what it's like to have a parent that wants only straight A's out of you. My dad just let it slide last report card because Art was the subject that brought me down, and he could care less about it. I still ended up with a 3.94, so he's pretty happy.

I don't really have any major problems either, as I have a normal, boring life. But it's good to talk about the small ones we do have. If you think you have a weak personality, then the first step to solving it is admitting it.

This theory doesn't work on my ego, however....(It's just too much fun to have XD)

[gotmilk]

Ha Ha, thanks. Your reply made me laugh. It's kind of nice to know that someone else had similar insecurities as I do. It's also good to know that you grew out of it. I hope I'll be able to in these past few years. I don't know if I can survive the College/highschool expectations my mom's going to set for me. O.o

To grow out of my shyness, I should create...an...ego? *shrugs* Close enough. XD I'll try my best. Thank you.

[Mirai Ira]

Why is it you listen to Haruske but not me? I tell you the same thing all the time. You're a great person. Being sensitive just means what it means. Sensitivity isn't a sign of anything bad. It just means you're a little easier to rock.

A 3.8 GPA is great. You've got half A's and half B's, which means your smart and that you're doing great. Hiro, we talked about this time and time again. You don't base yourself and how YOU judge yourself on what someone ELSE thinks. Is your brother getting a 4.0? I really hope not, because he's an idiot (which is besides the point). Don't compare yourself to others that aren't even like you. You did great without a tutor, so chill.

If you're happy enough, then great. You can move out when you hit 18 and we can all just go to college and university together. I'll even treat you to dango when we go to Japan. Don't worry so much.

School now doesn't even effect your end goal of being a manga-ka. And yes, grow a huge ego. I wouldn't mind if it came from you. -.-